What constitutes friendship? I sometimes ask my self that. As years go by, lines blur over and over between enemies, allies, acquaintances, and friends. Out of many encounters in my life, Someone had stood by my side with extraordinary insight and undying loyalty ever since we met. I’ve never had a friend who’s so full of cunning and charm, and yet so sincere and honest, and offered me so much support and advice like he did. Being 4 years younger I never admitted to him that I looked up to him all the time, Comparing many of my actions to his, to see if I stack up, to see if I have done just as well, or thought things through just as much. Having never told him that is now one of my biggest regrets in life.
This year marks my tenth year of knowing James, in the past decade, he taught me what it means to be a grown up, what it takes to be successful in life. This year happens to be his most successful year in his career, racking in fortunes many people have to work years for, but he never changed a single bit. This year also has been his happiest, not because of how much he made, he’s told me, but because people looked at him differently in this country for the first time.
In May, James was suddenly diagnosed with stage 3 liver cancer, second deadliest cancer in the world. Distraught, but confident a person with his physical attributs and age could beat an impossible hand of cards, we all hoped for the best. In true James fashion, in the past 6 months, he was at his finest, giving this shitty cancer every last strand of his strength and put up an spectacular fight.
My best friend, my big brother, my confidant, my adviser… passed away on a quiet Sunday afternoon in November, as the drizzle stopped and cloud parted. His expression was serene and peaceful, almost surreal against his cancer ravaged body. He was surrounded by many, amongst them, stood me, someone who learned, and was lucky enough to experience, the true meaning of friendship.
It’s been wonderful knowing you my friend!
黄昏的海风吹起
轻拂我此刻舒缓的心
天边金色的夕阳
将这温暖的时刻染红
倾听飞鸟的歌唱
心随大海的节奏起舞
ma..ya….ma
曾经茫然孤单的时光
我已习惯承受隐忍
为何此刻欢乐的心
却又忍不住地想哭泣
music
无限宽广的星空
将爱就在一瞬间点燃
倾听大海的歌唱
心在辽远的星际起舞
maya….ma
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